SPIRIT THREADS (LYRICS)
1. Chaos in the Energy Flowing System
(J.Palacio) © 2003, 2009 by Johan Palacio
I m going to make you proud of me
Seeds ache and flame inside of me
I'm going to dig beneath the ground
And roll it all toward you
And play it all for you
I'm gonna prove it to you
But I can't make you want me
And I can't make you love me
Yet I can't help it if I want you
To love everything about me
But I can't let peace fill me inside
Yet I can't change this mellow mind
And I can't help if I want you
To marvel right back at me
I need to feed my soul
I've learned to be alone
I should be happy alone
(But) It's good to be with you
(Oh) It's great to be with you
I need to speak my mind
I've been held behind
I need to catch up with time
(But) It's so hard to do it alone
I don't want to wait anymore
I need to prove myself
Be happy with who I am
I should be happy alone
But I don't want to be alone
I don't' want to be alone
I should be happy with myself
But I rather find happiness in you
I'm going to do all it takes
And roll it all toward you
And play it all for you
I'm going to really love you
2. John Q. Public
(J.Palacio) © 2009 by Johan Palacio
I'm so scared of John Q. Public
Running around like I'm some convict
Spying on me like I'm going to do something
Old lady gives me a
fitch witch look
Old man growls when I
bump into his book
All the brats shout and
make fun of me
Run around me and
spit at my feet
Crowded places and
Florescent Lights
Dirty bathrooms
and all its public fights
All those people run
and always litter
Ruthless drivers
cut me off on the street
And girl, to see you
walk around alone
I'll be the one to
warning you of John,
Scanning your body
from head to toe
Am I insecure?
Scared to be left alone?
I'm so scared of John Q. Public
Following you around like you're a convict
Scanning your body like you're a piece of meat
Spying on you cause you're not with me
3. I Miss You
(J.Palacio) © 2004, 2009 by Johan Palacio
You're such a wonderful delight
Paintbrush washes the sky
Delicate and sweet inside
Your lips kissing the horizon
And I Miss You
And I really need you
Baby I want You
And I Miss You
Drive by and deep mourn fills me
So fierce it almost kills me
So deep and lost in distance
So far I can't even reach it
Sad stories fill the sky, but
My eyes shimmer at your sight
As your body lays on the horizon
Sounds like I weep to wizen
And I Miss You
And I really need you
Baby I want You
And I Miss You
And I Miss You
And I really need you
Baby I want You
And I Miss You
Miss you when the day is dark
Think of you when your rainbow is far
I'll hold you till time is dead
I'll love you after time is abed
4. The Hermit
(J.Palacio) ©2009 by Johan Palacio
I'm not lazy
Just a little crazy
I'm a hermit
and i love to spend my time
in front of my cpu
I'm not anti-social
just social disabled
I could be happy all alone
locked up in my room
Music recording, digital creating,
video uploading, being productive
In the future we will see it all had a meaning
when you and me sit and laugh at what we are seeing
Internet browsing, research videos,
editing movies, staying productive
Online research, photo album archiving, online ordering
& social networking and instant messenger
with friends I've that never met
meet me online instead!
5. New Vitality (Listen Listen)
(J.Palacio) © 2003, 2009 by Johan Palacio
Listen Listen Listen
(You) Don't know about sitting
Or waiting, debating,
Could you just
listen for
once the way
I listen to you
Listen oh listen listen
If you want to read
The reason for my writing
At least
For sharing, explaining
The way that I read into you
If I make a comment <you ignore it>
If I want to talk <you cut me off>
If I make a sentence < you just ignore it>
If I show your feelings <you build a wall>
And if you listen
You'd see what you're missing
The special things inside
The reason that your alive
May I let loose
The ghosts that haunt me inside
The webs that cover my mouth
The feelings that eat me inside
Chanting:
Listen, listen..
Won't you listen
Sit down and listen
Please, Please listen
My ghost
The webs
My feelings
Please Please Listen
If I make a comment <you ignore it>
If I want to talk <you cut me off>
If I make a sentence < you just ignore it>
If I show your feelings <you build a wall>
Listen and listen
got to sit down and listen
you are bursting and talking
glossing is only your calling
the day has darken
but i'm just sitting and waiting
by the phone time keeps ticking and
passing as I am sleeping alone,
starting to catch some zzz's
"Hello Hello you seem to plead
Am I sounding like I'm whining?"
you wonder why I am so quiet
just one more thing i'll say
before I let you go your way
everything turning into blah blah
everything turning into blah blah
6. Not Gonna Do It
(J.Palacio) © 2009 by Johan Palacio
IM NOT GONNA DO IT
Anymore
People are talking
But no one's debating
Instead they are playing
With their lives
People are too busy
Working and saving
Then they go spending
Deep in the debt
People are partying
Drinking and smoking
Satanic and Pagan
Holidays got their ways
Why the darkness of this world make me want to go crazy
So many tempting and sinful things I haven't even tasted
The media is filling my mind and I can't even take it
My body wants a piece of high peace and bit of that ecstasy
I'm gonna turn the cheek cause I'm
People are so stupid
Little things bring them down
Then they go wasting
Away high and hung over
People are carrying
Baggage and problems
A slave to this world
Pagan ways got their ways
7. Bandwagon
(J.Palacio) co produced by R.Palacio © 2001, 2010 by Johan Palacio
Everyone is doing it, so why can't we?
Don't jump into a bed, full of mistakes and greed
He takes in the crack, He's got them stack packed
Dead is the trend, (for) the punk who joined the gang
The crowd is chasing that, so do you too?
He got stabbed in the back, know no one knows Jack
He jumped on the Band-wagon, too bad for all you geeks
Apple seeds, In their systems
C'mon and jump in, to this bandwagon
If you want to do, what everyone else does
Bandwagon antics, too bad he jumped in this
Apple seeds, in their systems
The style is here, you chose to go with it
You chose wrong, very very very wrong
Pills, pills, pills
It fills, fills, fills,
Pills, pills, pills,
It gills, gills, gills
Pills, pills, pills
It ills, ills, ills
Pills, pills pills
It kills, kills, kills,
8. Spirit Threads
(J.Palacio) ©2009 by Johan Palacio
I can't even clamp my eyes up
Weight is heavy on iris
Light is hazy and the room is blurry
The light is cold and it burns
Fluorescent lights fry the pigments on my skin
Could i sleep yet no one notices?
I don't even understand, I feel so stupid.
My words they come out and are interpreted wrong
Oh no, but if the feelings are right then maybe i can feed my soul
Oh yeah, but if the feelings are right then maybe can eat some more
Maybe feel some more
Maybe feel my soul
My actions are so wrong, maybe I should walk away
I cant take this anymore,
Everyday i feel I am not right for you
I want to break down and cry and yell and yell so loud
so loud the world hears me
But you are my lovely soulmate! and we have lived over centuries
Why is this era in time so corrupted?
And hell (though I don't believe in it) hears me as i greet it in my sleep,
In my dream, while all I ache is for a hug and a kiss
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Oh no, but if the feelings are right then maybe I can feed my soul
Oh yeah, but if the feelings are right then baby I can eat some more
Maybe feel some more
Maybe feed my soul
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The past is a scary dream, The past is a scary story
The past is a brisk wind, The past is a scary melody
Maybe in another dream, maybe in some other fantasy
Meet me in your physical, and not with your picture
I can feel you, now, in a daydream, in a parallel universe
Maybe you'll remember this, in a nightmare, in some other life time
9. Scattered January
(J.Palacio) © 2009 by Johan Palacio
I look at myself in the mirror
but i don't see a man inside
Instead i see a grey dark shadow
very few smiles that graced my life
I lay my head on my pillow
so scared of getting old
and "where did all that time go?"
maybe a change comes tonight
Another year by the minute
reflecting on what's behind
the saga still continues
fear still morphs into sight
hold me just like your pillow
drool on me throughout the night
I just want to be your pillow
so I can sleep tonight
real tight
warm me up tonight
real tight
as the years go by
love me
long cold winter sighs
no whirlpool
in my eyes
Everybody's falling in love
But I am falling out of it
The streets are covered with snow tonight
And that makes my home a hideaway
I'd like to take a plane tonight
and leave this cold dump faraway
I just had a dream with you last night
you and me falling in love over again
I just want to be happy
no whirlpool in my eyes
10. The Evergreen Peace
(J.Palacio) © 2003, 2010 by Johan Palacio
Puffs of clouds are bound in love
(As if they were) eternal puffs of smoke and steam
These thin tall tower trees
piercing into the clouds high above into their seams
God Bless the evergreen peace
Driving through narrow streets and roads
Along the sound and glitter of fresh water streams
The road cuts into the Appalachian trails
And thin and tall trees tower high above into the seams
And on the radio
Violin and piano
Fast and slow
Wicked and disturbing
Close you eyes and sink them deep inside
Look into the wonder that is your mind
Stay in power of prayer and guidance
Find refuge and strength in all of its branches
God Bless the evergreen peace
God bless you and me
Strong beneath ice and snow
Tall and green never let go your leaves
Never gonna fall asleep through the seasons
Its contrast among the cracking leaves
That is the beauty that there is
The spirit that rests in between
The tear drops that are running free
The joy that exists with the beauty we see
(I am) of the universe
Of the stars in peace
( I am) of the country
Of the plains In the field
I am a witness
of the divine in Piece
(I am) of the universe
In love with the evergreen
I am a witness
Of creation around me
I am one
With the one from above
11. I Miss You Every Day
(R.Palacio) © 2009 by Johan Palacio
As the winter goes by without being with you,
I wonder where you are and I wonder what you do.
And here alone I wait because you're miles and miles away,
And I miss your love each day,
But will this spring be that same?
Hey girl, I miss you every day
I guess life will always be this way
'Cause I miss you
I always think of you,
But I'm afraid that I may lose
And girl, if I lost you,
I'll never find no one like you.
But no matter how long this takes,
I sure hope it won't be too late
But I'll keep holding on come what may.
12. Ugly/Enigma
(J.Palacio) © 2003, 2009 by Johan Palacio
I'm frigid
I'm stone dead
I'm crude
A tasteless fool
No meaning
to your days
A mystery
in no phase
in a baffling
riddle in your brain
I am a stranger
to your thoughts
I don't know why
you didn't love me
I don't know why
you didn't keep me
I am a stranger
to your thoughts
I have no meaning
to your cause
Green rotten apples
In a fruit bowl full of worms
Goo that sticks like maggot
In a their buffet brawl
Mirror plate on the walls
Shatter pieces of my many flaws
Razor cuts on my skin
Bleeding from all the insults
Do I have to scare you away?
Must I bring this vomit up on a tray?
I am a stranger
to your thoughts
I have no meaning
for the unknown
Do I have to scare you away
Must I bring my troubles, serve it all on a plate?
I am a stranger
to your thoughts
I have no meaning
for the unknown
I don't be long in any photo album
Or need a memo in your daily planner
Just try to keep me in your memory
But if it all goes with out your hold
Then I should live on as the Unknown